In looking back in my life, there are some regrets...but since I can't change what I did, I can only move foward with the education and experiences that life has provided me thus far. In that there have been many people who have inspired me along the way, and it is for them, that I write this blogg, but not in the traditional form, so bare with me, and let me explain.
1. Father God-I would not be here without the love and guidence of my spiritual father, God. I know that it's not always "popular" to speak one's faith, but if any of you know me, and my life story, it's not hard to see who inspires me, leads me and teaches me the true meaning of life, laughter, and most important, love. He has given me everything I have ever wanted, and that was just to be valued, and loved as a person. I thank Him every day for the gift of life, the ability to live and the capacity to love again. Life isn't any easier just because I believe in God, but it's not as difficult, I know that I am never alone, and with this, I can always get through whatever life throws at me, and know that He has gifts for me that haven't even been given to me just yet.
2. My sister Maria-Although we weren't raised together, she has always kept my memory alive within her. When we reunited in 1981, we began to reconnect as if we had never been apart. Even through my years of addiction, she stood beside me, believed in me and defended me. More importantly, she never gave up on me. It is because of my sister that I am about to celebrate being drug-free for 5 years now. Yes, I did the work, but she was always in my corner, cheering me on, and lifting my spirits when I thought I couldn't make it, and willing to kick my @ss if I talked about giving up. My sister is my hero, and my 1st. best friend...and always will be. I can talk to her about anything/everything without worrying about what she thinks, because she's not afraid to tell me...lol, but always with love and care...and even though we only see each other 2-3 times a year, we stay in contact through e-mail, FB, and phone calls...and it never ceases to amaze me that when I'm feeling my lowest, worried or stressed, I hear from her..."I just thought about you and wanted to call."...that's my sister, always there when I need her most, and always with a shoulder to lean on.
3. Like most people, we do not want to be alone, and like most people, I have made some dumb choices in the dating scene. I had just gotten out of a scary relationship at the beginning of this year and wasn't looking for a relationship...but here I am, with one of the most beautiful women I have ever known. Dhyane and I clicked in ways that I had forgotten about. She, like I, was not looking to get into anything other than maybe coffee, a movie, or something on the "friend" level of dating. We have been dating "officially" for close to 2 months now, and we both know that this is the real thing. Dhyane is one of the funniest, caring, compasionate, and understanding people I have ever met...and 2nd. only to my sister, is my best friend. We are taking this slowly, but we are not afaid to enjoy life and all it has to offer...and I know that it is God who brought her into my life...and in so doing, has reminded me that He has only good things for me in His plans....and I am thankful.
So, you can see that all 3 people/entities in my life that have helped to shape me are related...and for that reason I am thankful for the life I now have.....So I'll say that this Thanksgiving, I am thankful for life, laughter, and most importantly, love....and all that life has to offer.....peace
wow what a powerful blog. I wanted to cry lol God has his own plans for everybody and we do not always understand it sometimes but if you keep on praying good things do come.
ReplyDeletenot many people would even consider God as an important person in their life, it's good to see you stick to your faith and don't forget about him.
ReplyDelete5 years?! Congratulations. It's so good that you have people in your life that stand by you through everything.
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